I feel so…..
I want to scream in frustration and anger but I can’t, I want to rip books apart, tear them asunder till there’s nothing left of them save bits of paper but I can’t, I want to fling the chairs and tables across my study room and see them smashed the windows but I can’t, I want to bang my head against the wall and beat it with my fist and kicked it till my head bleeds, my fist bleeds, and my feet bleeds, but I can’t…I just can’t. I can’t and I can’t and I can’t!! I am so sick of everything…so very sick of everything. So sick and frustrated to the point that I feel like ending my life once and for all…it’s so very tempting to do so…so many people would say that life would look up at me. I ask those who told me that now…when…is it going to happen?!?! WHEN?!?! I have had enough troubles going on in my life already!! So many sickening ironic situation that’s enough to make me put a bullet through my head. I want something good at least to happen in my life…at least something that would ease my burden off…is that too much to ask for?? I have done too much…given too much…sacrifice too much…yet…received too little…or nothing at all…nothing…yes…that’s the word…nothing…nothing…nothing…nothing…nothing…
